Day2; Happy Face + New Years Eve

Happy Face! Happy Face! It is Jaesel's Happy Face! =D

!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

Where ever you may be, whether it is at home, your family/friends house, another city, another provice or another country, I just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year and that everything will go according to the way you wish you want it to be!

Have an amazing one! Take care and GOD bless!

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Day1; Regular Face

This is my regular face. No make up, no touch ups, just my face and the camera.
YAY for regular face!

UPDATE
So I watched Tron Legacy yesterday with Graham. I have to say, my brother is right; watching Tron in IMAX 3D has more exhilarating experience than the others. I recommend people to watch it in that terms. It is not the greatest movie nor was it the not-greatest movie... its floating in between.

We went to Tuckers Marketplace afterward for dinner. I think there was a problem with their potatoes that I ate cause I had a really really bad reaction to them. Hopefully it was only for that night because if it is going to be always like that, I will have to take action. Luckily though, the Wal-Mart Superstore was there so we walked to it and bought the "local" version of Peptobismal; it worked. Haha!

It was a fun date. We have not had a date date in a while. We've always been chilling with friends which does not bother us at all, it is sometimes good to have time to chill with the friends and it is always fun but in every relationship, some alone time is good. I love alone time.

Well, I gotta go. I have two journals that are due when I get back to school. Geez... school work during the holidays. It's not a holiday if I have to still do school work. >:(

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Trying out those Challenge things.

A little different then all the other challenges that I have seen going around. Going to try it out.

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This Season

I see a lot of people enjoying the holidays with all their smiles and celebrations with family, friends and relatives. Everyone looks like they are in a jolly and happy mood whenever this season comes even though it is such a short while but they look like they are having a blast. People visit other people, people exchange happy moments and just listening to their conversations is enough to know that they are enjoying their selves this season.

As for me, this holiday is a piss off through out. I am sick of being out of the circle because of circumstances which becomes a piss off in the end. I have been patient and I try to be good but in the end, I end up the one suffering. I cannot pull myself out of it because there is no other way whenever I think of a way out. I am sick of being the only one who is the odd one out and I have to dig my way through just to understand and know what is happening between things. I am sick of being the last to know on things and being the one being pitied but it is too late to do anything.

I honestly cannot do anything but just merely say FUCK IT. I could go on with this rant but I will not. There is no point on spewing out like this, it will not change anything. All this does is share how negative I am inside and when this is read, people will start wondering if I am OK or if I need a shoulder or some crap like that. What ever is in my mind and what ever is in my chest... it has been damaged and rattled enough for me to know that I cannot fix it to put it back together in a simple manner. This excerpt is not even quarter of what I am feeling inside because if I splurge any more, I will probably say something that I wish I did not say so I will stop right here for now.

I quit everything.

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"Agent of Secret Stuff" Movie + Update

Maybe some of you have already watched this movie by Wong Fu Productions but I would like to share this short film with any of you who has about 35 minutes to spare and watch it.

I enjoyed it very much and I actually will watch it again and again. It is something that I thought would be nice to share to anyone who is interested in watching a comedic/action-packed film.

I hope you enjoy it.



UPDATE
I am very happy that I was able to see my Mel-Mel yesterday. Seeing your face and your physical being really made me happy. I am really happy that I was able to share even the little things with you and I really hope that we will see each other again before you leave and play kinect! Haha! I love you and I am happy that you are back even though it is for a short while only.

I hope I could get to see and chill with my friends. I don't think I have had the opportunity to actually chill with them in a long while because of all the things that I have to do for my family during the Christmas season. It gets a little lonesome at some points when I cannot hang out with my friends the way I want too. I hope I do... at some point at least.

I have keep working on my over-the-holiday-assignments that are due when I get back. I have been slacking for a while so I have to start getting on the ball on these things. It is really something that keeps my mind to go back into the studies. T^T

I also have to get Christmas presents. I have to think of what to get and the mall is a little hectic when entered. Luckily there are stores that are 24 hours so thats not so bad LOL

I am going to need a lot of time management for these things. :P BLEH!

I wonder what I am getting for Christmas this year? Hmmm... xP
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Well...

... that is just plainly stupid. No lie. It is like "In-Your-Face" stupid.

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I'm a terrible daughter...

I was not able to book off today or tomorrow from work.

It's my moms birthday today and no one spent it with her. She was all alone for most of the day and now she is just at home cooking. She is going to cook instant noodles just so that there is some sort of consumption of noodles during her birthday.

I feel really terrible. I really feel that I failed as a daughter to not be able to spend one of the most precious days in someones life; especially the person who brought me to this world.

I want to make up for it but how can I? I found something that I think she would like but I do not know if she will be happy. Maybe I'll go somewhere. There has to be something I can do.

I am sorry mom but I really do want to wish you a Happy Birthday. I love you.

I feel horrible.

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Friday Moment

I finally slept in today after not sleeping well at all this week. There is still one more week left until Christmas vacation but I am still busy. I have to catch up on stuff and work on things that I need to work on. Oh well, that is what university life is about. I clearly need a break soon... I know my body is really messed up.

Dang! It's already December... meaning the year is almost over and this is where I usually think about all the things that happened this year. I wonder...

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Ps -- I found out what my bottled anger was. It is just my feeling of not being able to see your face or hear your voice in person. I guess I kept in bottled in and hide away but it eventually burst open.

Please come home soon. :(

Bottled Anger?

I have no idea why this is happening but it is. I do not know why or how or whatever the circumstances may be... it's just there.

This feeling of anger is building up inside of me and I have no freaking idea why.

It's just there... in there! Just... THERE! URGAHHH!!! It's like bottled up with a fat cork and cannot be reached because its placed on the highest shelf; it is just so damn annoying and its there! Oh my goodness... I cannot explain it. I feel like throwing something at it but I cannot cause there is nothing to throw it with.

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU!!!!

It's frustrating! Grr..!! What the hell is making me upset.

SHIT!

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Red Alert

I am officially have a mental meltdown and a really bad one. Looking for alternatives to keep myself together but nothing is working. My mind is spinning and I cannot get the things that I wanted done even though I planned out what I want to do in an organized manner.

Because of this, I am actually getting sick. I am having stomach problems, headaches, sinus problems and body aches. I am taking my vitamins in the morning and Tylenol when I need too but these are only temporary aids. Sleep is turning into naps which is bad cause its not a full rest, its disruptive sleep. That is not good at all.

Anyone have suggestions for de-stressing? It would really really be great!

ATM: Trying to stop the meltdown... if I let it happen, I will not get anything done. Grr...

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Those Challenges

I have recently been seeing a lot of those challenges on Facebook and when I troll around so I have come to a decision to try out those (#) Day Trials that people posts on either a daily basis or a weekly basis or whatever basis the rules sets.

I don't know why I want to do it... I guess its cause its something to really think about when I am heavily stressing about so many thing. Something to get my mind off from the structured world.

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Confession

I'm addicted again.

Not just one but two at the same time; a dangerous combination in my eyes, I know it but I choose not to avoid it.

Why? ... I just cannot seem to get enough of it. It's a craving that cannot be satisfied in one helping.

Damn.

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Some freakin' nerve!

You woke me up so freaking abruptly and literally forced me to get up so I can drive you to Square One because you were running late to catch your bus! What the hell are you thinking! Especially when you said "Hey,I woke up late and I'm going to miss my bus. Drive me OK." Really!? Do you really think I could just get up and drive like freaking the amazing girl who can overcome anything after sleep. You freaking woke me up and now you're demanding me to drive you?! I'm not your freaking personal taxi driver you freaking idiot! I mean, I know I am your sister and I understand that you don't have bus fare or your running late and all but freak man, don't be such a dick; whatever you were demonstrating is clearly a freaking dick move. And then you get mad that I am mad at you for you waking me up so freaking sudden. I have the right to get at you, NOT the other way round. This is a freaking favour that you are asking me and you're demanding this kind of crap. I wanted to freaking snap at you for being such a HUGE DICK about it. You DO NOT understand the stress and concentration that is needed when driving ESPECIALLY when a person JUST WOKE UP. You won't understand that because you don't drive yet. We can only tell you our experiences but you have to experience it yourself the amount of whatever drivers go through; ESPECIALLY when it is in the freaking morning, dark and raining. You better stop thinking of yourself at times or even if you do, spare extra time to the person you are a favour asking for. Don't freaking wake me up at the time when you have to leave, especially if the person is the driver. Whatever you just did... it's freaking ridiculous. Honestly, it is. Geez.

I really needed to rant this out so badly. I'm going back to sleep. Have to drive other people later on in the day.

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Woke Up Late

Have been sleeping in a lot lately. Just woke up and now I am going off to school. Haha!

Oh what life there is for me! xP

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Hahaha!!!

OMGSH! I just realized how much I enjoy and how much I miss using these old ghetto computers that we have here in the lounge outside the library!

It's soooooo hilarous and memory reminding how basic technology was (and still is at some points) but it shows the advances that have been made as well. I miss them a lot but this is the type of thing that is pushed forward for the better.

Off to my 11:30AM class I go. Haha!

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Very Distracted

Man... I have a midterm in about 7 hours. I am still studying and trying to wish to sleep but I want to study. Also because my brother is not yet home and my mom freaks out when she knows that her children are not all at home.

So far... everything is shitty in comparison. Hopefully it gets better as the days go by.

I really need to get some sleep.

Anyways... back to studying!

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First of November

It is just so mellow.

Be back to update.

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Halloween Weekend!

I really have no idea why but I am PUMPED for Halloween. Then again... for every sort of holiday event I get pumped up for but oh well. I am really really excited for it! Although I am still working, I'm only working in the morning 9AM-6PM so I don't think its that bad.
I guess it is also an exciting time for me cause once this weekend is done, I don't have to go back to that place anymore. It's over! Wahahaha!!! You guys know what it is that I am talking about ;D

Alright.. well, I just wanted to express my feelings and notions that I am excited for this Halloween weekend. I think I am also excited to give the Trick-or-treaters the treats that I have for them. Teehee!

Also, I am still debating what to dress up as for the occasion. I want to be ready for the season! Wahaha!

Oh by the way... I was able to cut my hair. I like it. It's not so bad... I want to dye it a different colour though but what to do. I will figure that out when the time comes... maybe I could have a dynamic colour! Oooooo..... Haha!

OK. I have to go back to study (LMFAO! Yes... I study) for midterms. Soooo much things, not just midterms but also assignments due. YIKES!

Although, it is Friday and maybe I could be doing something else. Hahaha!

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Stalling...

This whole week went pretty well. I have been sleeping in till past 12noon which is somewhat of a good and bad thing put together. Yeah I screwed up my body clock just a little bit but it is a good thing that I regained those sleeps where I loss during my school hours.

As for the assignments that I wanted to do, I have not finished them but still on the verge to finish them. There is still way too much for me to finish them all in one week. Maybe if I don't sleep for a couple of days and keep working and such. Hmm... not a bad idea =P

I have to say that at least I got to read some of my books that I have been wanting to read and finished. I still haven't started reading the series that Graham got me and he refuses to buy me anymore books until I have finished that set. So many books I want to read but I cannot get to it! Damn!

Alright.. I am just really stalling by doing this so I am going to see if I can start the work now. I highly doubt it but it is worth a shot. Teehee!

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Text Convo/NTVivien/NewsReAction

J: "Since we do not have much to talk about and we usually just talk about what we are going to do on our dates, lets have a different conversation for a change."

G: "OK, what do you have in mind?"

J: "Alright, I'll start. Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?"

G: "Isn't that an Enrique Iglesias song?"

J: "... no."

Hahahha!!!

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PS. Vivien, you are right. Every time Graham and I are having an argument, it is mostly about food and nothing else! LMFAO!

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GOD Bless those 33 miners from Chile who have been rescued today after 70 days in that mine. I hope all of you have a full recovery!

BTW... SHAME ON THAT MINER WHO CALLED FOR BOTH HIS WIFE AND MISTRESS TO BE THERE!

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So I am to go back to my readings, projects and assignments that are needed to be completed but who knows... I will probably fall asleep as usual. Geez... >_<

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Before I do anything

So I was sappy in the last post but what the hey, there are always mopey times in life and it just so happens it was when the last post was posted but now I am feeling a little better after buying some stuff and doing some stuff that I thought cheered me up and it did.


Not feeling as sappy and mopey any more!

One of the "doing some stuff" is using the MAGIC BULLET. Oh yes... good ol' magic bullet. As I recall Jaimee being very insistent to using the magic bullet for any needs possible, I whipped up myself an Oreo Milkshake. Well, it is not the best milkshake that I have ever had (or will ever have) but anything homemade always seems to be good in my eyes. I actually just finished drinking it so I should be running on sugar for quite a bit now. Teehee!


Yummy yumm yumm yumm...

As I stated before, I lately have been a list maker over the course of the summer. I think it is a good habit that I developed during the hectic summer that I had. It really does help me with anything that I need. I actually get pretty lost if I do not refer to the list every now and then. Its just a reminder for myself to know what I need to do, what needs to be done and what is to be done in the upcoming days.


I bought this at Chapters because I thought it would be a great thing for me. It is already filled up! Pretty neat huh!

Another thing that I cheered myself up with is buying books. For what ever reason, I have been buying a lot of books. Well, majority of them are bought but some of them were given to me. I have so many books to read and I read them so much that I completely sometimes forget to read the readings for school. Another reason why I am behind in my school work. I enjoy reading my books and so far they are fantastic! I have never read a whole collection of books in my life. I am really enjoying reading all of these stories... even though some of them are not my age appropriate, I say this "WHO CARES!" If I am reading a children's book, a Tween book, graphic novel, picture book, books with sounds or what ever I may be reading... I DO NOT CARE! People sometimes come up to me and ask why am I reading a book that is not my age appropriate... I stare at them blankly and just answer "its what I do" and continue on. I still have yet to finish reading The Series of Unfortunate Events Collection, "To-Do List" book and the trilogy book series that Graham got me called The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare; so many books to read! I cannot put any of them down. So at the moment, I have two new books that I got for myself today:

(1) How to reduce your carbon footprint
(2) Bad Boys Online


It was one of those BOGO deals so I took the chance. Only $5.00 in total so it was not so bad. I have yet to read either of them. I am pretty excited because lately the only things that I have been reading are school related and my head just bursts at the thought of touching the front cover of it. Haha!


Well, that should be it for today. This is probably one of the longest blogs that I have posted but what the hey! I was not able to post a lot during the summer so why not! I should share what is happening in my life and so far it is hectic as my room but what can I do. I am just an ordinary university student that is just trying to reach a goal that she does not know yet. Haha!

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PS. Song of the day: Crazy - LMFAO

Its October

Time flies when your life starts to set in a certain routine; in this case, its the school routine.

Time also flies when you are trying to catch up with the time you lost. I am mostly doing that because I feel that I have not been in touch with any of my friends lately. I have been feeling very distant since I hardly get to see any of them and I don't get to share the things they have to say. Sometimes the last to know to be honest; I personally do not like that but I cannot say it is not my fault for having that happen. Hopefully, slowly but surely I will get in touch with them once again.

I still wish I could find time to do things with my friends and for myself. I list them down and post them up on my wall but all I can do is just stare at them and figure out how to accomplish them. I have been lately been making so many lists and reviewing it, revising it and sooner or later, I have this gigantic list and wondering how it became so big when I was sure I was suppose to only list about 10. I think I have been a list maker now... I hope I don't get crazy over it.

October has been a sappy time for me. It's only been a couple of days and I feel really low. I guess its cause the change of weather and the many different things that occur during October. I think this month is a really odd one in my opinion. A lot of things that concerns with feelings about many different things. Maybe it's just me... who knows.

Been having a hard time sleeping still... body is probably still in working mode and mentally draining my head slowly. I need to just sleep but there is so much to do and so much to accomplish that it is not possible at all. It is crazy but I know I have to finish them.

I also have to find a job. After this month, I am done with that place and right now I am currently looking for a job that I can get. I am trying really hard because I really do need the money to help myself and my family. I really hope somewhere out there, they will be able to answer what I am in need for.

I should also stop stalling myself on doing things. I should just get started and get them done. I should mentally put that in my head and work on it.

Over thinking a lot of things. I have to get my head out of the water and breathe some air.

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Just deciding...

I think I should do something completely and utterly crazy with myself. Got a couple ideas here and there in a list somewhere; I have to find it first. LOL

Whether or not I am going to go through it?? We will just have to wait and see. xP

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First Day

As of now, I am already half way through my first day of school with this nasty infection that I have and I have been coughing and whatever I have been doing in order to stay awake and continue on with my day (x_x) I have to say... I actually do not mind being here at school then that other place that I have been in for the past 6 months of the year. There is a lot of things to look forward too. I sure do hope that I get to see my friends and everyone that I have met and stayed in touch with. I saw a couple of friends here and there so it is not so bad. I really do hope I see more of them.

At the moment, I am on break for about 3 hours now. My class started at 2:30pm today and should have ended at 5:30pm but ended around 3:45pm since its the first day. I have to admit, I am very interested in this course. It is called The Theatricality of Power and just hearing the professor talk about it is quite interesting; I am really looking forward for this course. After class, I took the time to look for my books. I found a couple of them... I decided to buy the course kits because it is needed for the courses that I am taking and a spotted a couple of books that are marked "used" so I took them too since it gets 25% discount - hey, a discount is a discount right?! =D I have a reading to do anyways so I am really gonna get on it for sure.

As of now, I am sitting at ACE waiting for my studio class to begin. It starts at 7pm so I am just listening to my iPod that I had to reformat and reload songs that I have and also to find time to kill and this is working! Haha!

I am going to bounce. Laptop is dying LOL

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Geezz....

For the past couple of weeks, I was not able to access blogger for whatever reason it may be so I have not been able to update ANYTHING with what is going on with me or with you guys and it is already September.

Summer went by so fast and there is still so many things that I wish I was able to do but now cannot since the time is expiring really quickly. I missed out on so many things but I am giving myself 5 days (once Labour Day arrives) to make up the loss that I have due to the busy body me that I gave myself when summer started. I have to make it count or else I will feel sorry for myself for not taking initiative to give myself at least some fun in the summer. I really do need it!

Full-Time is ending this Sunday and I am really very relieved that it is so. Part-Time is coming and I am looking forward for it! I know I will be able to handle so and it will be awesome! I am going to make sure it will be.

I will update again and again because there are things that I wish to share but I do not know if it is too late or not. Whatever being... what I feel that I want to share, it will appear.

I have to get some shut eye. I work 9AM which is about 6 hours from now. Yikes!

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Its past 2am...

... and why am I still awake!?

1. I have to wait for my laundry to finish because my uniform smells like rain water because of the rain from the thunder storm and lightening.

2. Getting my stuff ready for work.

3. I cannot sleep.

Three simple reasons to why I am still awake past 2am. Did I mention that I have work at 9am today?! Well, I do. So poo!!

Haha! I am going to run on will-power and whatever beverage and food that I can get my hands on.

Wahahaha! Wish me luck!! >_<

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On the other hand...

I am enjoying watching the thunder and lightening outside my window. I like it very much.

NTS - Train harder.

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Mini-Update

I have not been able to write on my blog for the many reasons that occupy me and for reasons that when I want to write, its something like 3 o'clock in the morning. I just thought of updating this for the benefit of myself and of course to share whats been up with me and at the same time read your blogs and see whats up with you.

I looked at a calendar and I realized that there are only a couple more weeks till the beginning of school and the end of summer. Time has been passing by so fast that I did not even recognize it up until I looked at a calendar. I think part of why it felt fast is because I worked five times a week, pulling hours like mad. In the end, all the earned money has been spent on food, paying for the summer course, buying things for the summer course, help pay tuition for next year, helping out family issues, weekly needs and all that. I really do not have a lot in my bank but I am glad that I did not use it on things that are unimportant.

I do have to say that I really did miss a lot in the summer. I missed the rib fest that would come here for the weekend, I missed family outings and many more that I cannot think of at the moment. What I truly missed out on it hanging out with my friends and family and also my boyfriend. Since the summer began, I became a workaholic. I wanted to work to earn the money and spend the money when need be, especially when it comes to chilling with friends and family. I ended up working so much that I did not have time for any of it because of the schedule that was posted up and schedules that I made because of the circumstances of things that I have to follow. I only realized it when all my friends birthdays were here and mine too. I realized that I have not seen my friends to chill since school ended whether they are from my school or other schools. Also, I missed my best friends birthday party because I could not get it off and foremost, I was not able to celebrate my birthday with my friends. I just realized that this summer was not bad but nor was it good. I ended up feeling sorry for myself because I became a workaholic and did not find time or at least I could not get time off to just enjoy myself and with friends and family. I am pretty cheesed about it but the summer is almost over and there is only so much time left until everything is back to school mode.

What else is there... *sigh* I do not know. I will just leave it for next time. There is too much. At the moment, I really do feel a little down about it now.

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Aims in August

For the month of August, I am aiming for a number of things. I will refer to this list to see if I can accomplish them. I might add more to the list as I keep going but that is what I want to do.

Aims in August List

• GET MORE SLEEP - all the missed sleep missed in the previous months are to be regained this month


• SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY - even if it is just a simple being in the same room kind of thing


• SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY FRIENDS - even if it is just sitting with them and drinking coffee (they'll drink coffee while I drink something else =P)
  
• FIND A JOB - I am already currently working at Wonderland but when the season is over, I still need to find a job that will help sustain me


• WORK OUT - I feel that I am getting a little fatter and heavier and get tired easily so got to get the blood and stamina higher


• PLAY WITH HINHIN AND LIKSI - I haven't been spending time with them at all. They are always in the cage now and I feel really bad so I should at least carry them or let them run around


• GET BACK TO DRAWING - I have all these images and ideas in my head but I haven't been able to draw them out because of the many things I have been doing; got to get too it


• CALM THE FUCK DOWN - I have been stressing so much and making sure that everything is secure that I stress so bad that it takes out all the energy out of me; have to learn how to calm down and just be mellow


• READ BOOKS - I have been reading books but not lately because of my busy activities; have to just sit down and read


• ENJOY MYSELF - I have been working too hard and not spending enough "me" time; I should just mellow out and just be me


• WATCH MOVIES - I have not been watching any movies or any series of shows lately; I really have to catch up on those shows and films


• BE MORE DETERMINED - I have been putting of things, chickening out on a lot of activities and even plainly avoiding things that I am interested in but cannot get the courage to bring myself to do them; I have to learn to try things even if its a variation of something that I have been already doing

I think that should be it for now. I hope this list will remind me of the things I want to do and the things that I hope to accomplish this month. September is the next month after August so when that rolls around, there is not much that I can do. Must constantly remind myself about all this.

I really hope I can get these done! >_<

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P.S - I did not forget! =P I saved the best for last

• SPEND MORE TIME WITH GRAHAM - We haven't been spending any time together lately so it is a MUST that this should be done by this month!

July 31

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO ME



To top it off... I wish that Taylor Lautner wishes me a Happy Birthday! WHAT! xD


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Just to remind myself

Everything you said made me cry.

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Needed to write something

I have not posted ANYTHING for like the past 10 days... just realizing it now because I have not been electronically capable for the past 10 days due to the many things that has been happening during those days.

For most, I had my family reunion to go too. It was so much fun! All the gathering of family members that you know and you hardly know. It's a amazing how one side of the family is gigantic! There are people who I never knew that they were family but been friends with. Just comes to show how the blood ties within us is somehow connected even in the smallest way. The farthest people who attended the reunion is from Philippines and Japan. Man.. was it really surprising to even see them! I was able to grab the oppourtunity to just talk to them and see them. For the 3 days that the reunion was running for, the first day was the Meet&Mingle: that day was for whoever can come and just greet each other and see each other with food, drinks and everything. The second day was the Gala Night where the whole family gathers in one hall and party it out! I got a couple of my friends to attend too and I think they had fun... from what I saw at least. The last day was the Family Picnic: we went to CenterIsland and had a BBQ Picnic. It was really great! All the attractions, open space, water... just everything! It was a great day too weather wise I mean and it is very very amazing! I enjoyed every single moment of it! It is truly amazing to what reunions can bring. I don't have any pictures to post here but in Facebook, there is a lot. Feel free to browse through... I think it should be accessible.

What else can I say... Oh yes! Recently... I got promoted to Head Supervisor. Yes, it is official, I am a Supervisor in my work. It was quite a shocker since I was told the day of when my shift started. The only thing though is that I am in another unit. I don't work at that funnel place anymore... I work at a cookie place. Its crazy and entertaining! So many things to do... I really enjoy the unit and the staff is great! I sure miss my other staff though... I really do but I know that they will always be the awesome people that I know who I got to know in the unit.

Summer school is almost over. Wednesday is the last day and the final exam for the summer school course. I have to say that I have not enjoyed it. For one... its science and I have a very difficult time with science and I mean just any science. I find it really hard to understand it. Especially this science... I felt that it had like an anthropological theme to it and hold and behold, I am not good with plain facts at all that is thrown at you and you are expected to remember such and such. It's almost over now and I am just really aiming to pass this course and get the credit. I do not really care how much it affects my GPA because I did my best and if the result is what it is doing my best then so be it and let me have it. I can only do so much for something that is very challenging in the first place. I did everything that I could and that is what I can only do. =/ So I hope to GOD that I will pass this course and grab the credit needed.

Lately I have been feeling really down since I haven't gotten the time to spend with Graham. I realized that I haven't spent full quality time together for the past 2 weeks or so. I mean... yeah I was busy but I was hoping I could spend time but it just so happens that every time I am free, he is not and vise versa. He is going somewhere, he is doing something... we are just in two opposite ends that cannot get together any way possible. I really want to spend time with him and get that feeling back. I truly miss him and I really wish I can be with him right now.

I've had a lot of mixed emotions and I am slowly eliminating the sort of unnecessary ones and sorting them out. I am a little emotional lately for whatever reason but its cause of the many things that has been happening. I am just trying to get by and enjoy as much as I can to whatever I can do. As for now... I will be me and I will live on.

Lists of things to do:
1. I still need to see Melissa for a get-together meet up. I haven't seen her in such a long time that I need to see her with my own EYES.
2. I have to go out on date with Graham. Just need to spend A LOT of time with each other.
3. Need to get my sleeping pattern right... I keep waking up the same time no matter how late I sleep
4. Restudy Japanese. I sort of lost how to compose a sentence but I can still label things and understand conversation here and there.
5. Just enjoy myself

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57% Dead

Juggling work, school and the reunion is really getting a gigantic toll on me. I am hardly sleeping or eating right because of the many different things that I have to do in order to keep up with everything that has to deal with due dates and that is practically everything right now.

I am grateful that I got a week off from work in order to get the other two things done but so far... every little inch that I do seems to make the outcome more farther than closer. Work being placed aside for the week is actually quite helpful but I am already stressing out and today is just the first day of my scheduled vacation.

School is definitely a contribution of my anxiety and loss of mental strength. I have an essay that is due on Monday and I have been looking through journals and reading the course kit multiple times and I cannot sum up anything that will help me even start or think about the essay. I have actually researched my topic but so far, it is not the one that I am looking for. I just got to keep on reading I suppose and hope to goodness gracious that something in my wonderful mentally drained brain will regurgitate something of use that will contribute on my essay. Did I mention it was due THIS Monday!? O_o

On top of school... I have the reunion to shovel with. The reunion is very important to the family and especially my mother since we are the family that is hosting the event here and majority of our relatives are going to be there. I mean, we are talking about the whole family tree here. It is a gigantic event that will create memories that will last a life time! It is so crazy right now with all the preparations, food, decorations, program events and all that jazz... I am talking about a full blown jam packed event here! So far, I have been in charge with the construction of many different things like the banner, things to deal with computer and tinkering with ideas in order to get the job done. I am like my own tech committee and I am the "go-to" person when something does not seem fit or need advice on. It hurts my head a little but opinions matter when it deals with reunion like these. My reunion starts this Friday and lasts about 2 or 3 days... I do not remember. That is how dead I am.

So recap... I have an essay due on Monday that I am slowly but surely going to get done somehow and at the same time I have a family reunion planning and the actual event will be on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. How many days does that give me?? Not a lot when I looked at the calendar. Argh! The many different directions I am being lead too is really mind boggling and it does hurt very much. I am still jumbling both things because both are really important and I do not want to mess up on either of them.

On the good note... I have been playing a lot of DDR lately and I have to say, it relieves my stress quite a lot and at the same time enjoy it to the fullest! Haha! I think I should keep on researching now. It is a late right now but what can I do; it is the only time I can research. >_< Also... I think I might have to change my phone. Options given to me is the iPhone or Blackberry. Any suggestions?

Body check: 43% working and functioning => WARNING - LOW!

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Summer is here....

Summer has just started and I am already in a deep pickle because of how my body reacts to the weather that mother nature is so happily giving.

Due to the intense heat waves... I have been getting these nosebleeds that seem to take a long time to stop and at the same time, I am skeptical to even just move about because every movement I make can help contribute my body system. I mean... ever since I was a kid, I always had nose bleeds every time the weather changes drastically hot or cold but it was never this bad.

On Friday evening, my nose bled for about an hour roughly. On Saturday, my nose bled for about 30-40 minutes which caused me to feel light headed and nausea (I'm guessing both accounts caused it) and yesterday, I got a nose bleed while I was in a swimming pool. Luckily, it stopped right away so I'm grateful for that. Felt bad since I wanted to cool off in a nice pool but instead THAT happened.

So far, everything in this summer isn't going great for me. I've been bleeding and feeling weak and just plainly trying my best to cool down my body system so it won't go haywire.

Maybe I should go to a doctor to check it out. *sigh*

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Addicted to the song

I'm currently addicted to the song by Drake - Find Your Love (It is currently the song playing)

I have no idea why but it just hits me in the heart every time I hear it. Every time it plays, I have to listen to it.

I am currently recovering from what happened. I won't say anything and there is nothing that I think I should post here as of now so I will leave it like this for now.

I should just take it easy... I have to remind myself every time.

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Analysis

I took into consideration on what is happening to me lately. I have come to a conclusion that I am over stressed and over worked.

Reason being is because I have work and school at the same time. School is about to be over soon but I have the pressure on me that I might fail. I do not want to fail so I am pushing myself really hard to pass the course. On top of that, I have work... I know there are people who are able to juggle work and school at the same time. I think the reason why they are able to juggle it properly is because they do not work a ridiculous amount of hours that I do. I am not being full of myself but it is true. I asked my friends who are working how long they work for. They sometimes work a good amount of hours and I ask them what they do and I guess its the "doing" part that they are set apart from my job. I sometimes envy my friends who work their jobs but its alright I suppose. Its in the job description so its anticipated >_<

Also, school is another factor. I'm always hitting deadlines that are so close that I might become brain dead. Even though I start ahead, its still not enough to finish because of the many activities that is happening and that is about to happen when hitting mid-summer... for sure that is when everything starts happening.

Other than that... I'll just have to dig my way through. I really want to spend time with my family, friends and even my boyfriend. The analysis chart is really true... I do not spend enough time with my friends but what to do... its only temporary.

I guess thats it for now. I'll find something that will excite me. At the moment... leaving in a mellow note.

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PS.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KUYA JAP!

Feeling...

... a little off.

Maybe I've been working way too hard and way too long on both school and work. I am not really sure.

I don't really feel energetic as much... maybe it's because there is so many things happening all at once, it's just a little overwhelming to adhere.

I have to find something that'll make me happy and that will help me keep going.

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How do I feel?

Physically: I feel like every connected limb and joints will fall off any moment. Every movement that I have made is a contribution of this pain... it's very overwhelming.

Mentally: It hurts and beats really hard with every movement of thought I make. It's unbearable at times.

Overview: I think I am going to feel this way for really long time. T_T

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Reminders - Done ASAP

Just a reminder of things that needs to be done:

- Finish writing out the notes and re-read the readings for class
- Review for Mid-Term on Wednesday
- Search for courses in the website
- Once the amount is gone, ENROLL FOR YOUR FALL/WINTER CLASSES

Here are just other small reminders:
- Keep learning to draw and keep drawing
- Sing your heart out when you want too
- Smile on the things that delight your heart
- Having BBT with Melissa when she comes back
- Get some SLEEP

That should be it for now. I am pretty sure there is more to come =P

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The Start of June

I have not been very cheerful or energetic when the month of June began. I am not sure why but I noticed it nearing the end of May. I do not know what to do to turn it around... first of all, I don't even know what is causing my low energy.

If I think about it, it could probably be a couple of things. Maybe the routine of my day or summer is just not as exciting and eventful as it could be. Maybe there is something else there that I do not know and it is causing this. It is a bother really. I guess I'm loosing excitement in my current situation. Not sure what my situation may be but I know for the fact that I am not very happy on where I stand. Maybe I should find something that will make me feel excited or more energetic. I might be burned out...

On the other hand though, I know you are right. I want to thank you for knocking some sense into me when we were talking. That conversation really made me understand what is missing in our relationship. We should just set aside a day(s) where it is only you and I. Just spend a day with each other and enjoy each others company. I do not think we have been having that lately so its affecting us little by little. Hopefully I will be able to find those days where we can just chill and enjoy. I really hope there will be a day that will happen.

As for now, I will just keep going until I get to see you again and be with you again. It is a little sad but what can I do. Time is the only thing that is needed to be finished in order to get to you. I will hold on to those words that you said to me.

I will never forget it.

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Somewhere Out There

Lyricist: Cynthia Weil
Composers: James Horner and Barry Mann
From: An American Tale

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
on the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true...

I miss you very much. Please come home safely.

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Week Up Ahead

I'm going to be very busy before the May 24 weekend.

Thursday, May 20: Work from 12noon to 8pm.
Friday, May 21: Work from 12noon to 9pm.
Saturday, May 22: Work from 9AM to 5PM (Dolly Patton shift).
Sunday, May 23: Work from 5pm to 12AM.

Dang I'm a hard worker! xD I have to earn something!

I'm looking forward for this:

Monday, May 24: No work (should be) = Spending time with the family! Also, Graham is coming back on this day; should be at least.

Very excited for that. Spending time with the family and knowing that my lover is coming back from his vacation and I hope for a safe journey! =)

I have to sleep now. It's past 1AM and I should get some sleep. Night night!

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FML ATM

I am always getting the shitty end of the stick. No joke! It is very frustratingly annoying! Want to know about it? Ask me.

Waiting for this week to pass. Hurry up already! You owe me 30 days of dates! I will settle for 20 days but any less than that, you're going to make up for it bigger than this one. I DEMAND those dates!

Also... I should find ways to balance my food intake and work out. I have to find options, advices and methods on going about it. I gotta think.

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I forgot...

... why I avoided IM's and Inbox Messages.
Knowing you are that far away and communicating through electronic instruments depresses me because in my head, I want to have a conversation with you in person where I can physically see you, hear you, touch you and many more.
Just when I thought I am getting better... communicating with you just made it even harder.
Now I really feel bummed out and doing nothing. I'm going to hunt for comfort food.

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Just a note

Got to go home early from work due to the extreme windy conditions. Mother nature was really upset today.

Got to do some homework... still have to read though. Poop.

Tomorrow... work is from 9-5pm (Dolly Parton Shift) I get to spend Mother's Day tomorrow with my family so I'm also happy about that! YAY! Bad thing though, I don't get to go to church and I have to wake up really early! RAWR!

Other than that, it seems pretty OK. Sounds like everything is getting brighter... with the exception of some things that are disclosed!

Mwahahahahah!!! I'm just bored. >_<

I should head to bed now. I have to get up early!

NTS: Figure out how to get rid of those eye bags. T^T

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Couples

Every time I see a couple spending time together; even if the only thing they are doing are:
- holding hands
- spending time with each other even though they really don't know what to do
- having a meal together
- walking together
- hugging each other
- talking on the phone
- laughing together
- having their playful fights
and many other different ways a couple interacts with one another, it makes me smile and makes me feel good that there are times where two people can just enjoy themselves with one another and bathe in that feeling that they both are experiencing when they are together.

It makes my heart feel really nice and warm every time I see it. It is a feeling that people can experience when that feeling appears. Its just so wonderful to have when its there. It's like eating something that you haven't had in such a long time and tasting it once more and you remember all those past feelings that were so good at that time.

I wish I could get it soon.
I miss that feeling.

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To-My-Heart

Its hard being in love and being far away from each other...

Its almost like all the love songs and helpless romantic songs are jumbled and squished into a small vacant space in my heart and getting stuck because they all want to come out at once.

It's only been a week and it still hurts to breathe when I think of you. I have 3 more weeks to go, its not too long but it just drags really slow.

I have to find things that will make the day run faster but at the same time pace myself... if I move too fast, I might miss the little things that matters the most!

I got to love myself somehow.

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Assessment to myself

Work week is finally done for now... crazy and hectic was the situation but it was very a good experience for something like that. I also got a good work out from it, as well as some blisters. >_<

Summer school starts today... twice a week from 10AM to 1PM. Not so bad when I think about it.

I think I need more sleep but I can handle what I can for now I suppose.

Freaking out just a little bit but hoping it work itself out.

Got a message from Graham on Facebook. Its not much but it seems like he is enjoying himself... he's apparently tanned so I'll just take his word for it.

Other than that... I am just this one girl who has work on the weekends, going to summer school for the next 3 months, needing more sleep while freaking out on something and missing Graham dearly and curious about his tanned body.

imu.g

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One Big Note

I was cleaning out my Hotmail because I got bored and waiting for my laundry to finish. I was reading and remembering all the emails that I have received (and have not deleted =P) and its very interesting to re-read all the emails that I have received. Whether it is a forward or an actual typed email... it really brought back memories.

This in particular jumped out and I thought of sharing it.


"When Your feeling alone like no one cares read this cuz its absolutely true:

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
At least fifteen people in this world love you.
The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
There are at least two people in this world that would die for you.
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look.
Always remember the compliments you've received.
Forget the rude remarks.

So if you are a loving friend, send this to everyone on your list including the person that sent it to you. You have just been DEATHWISHED!

Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. Something good will happen to you between one and four o'clock pm tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life. If you break this chain YOU will be cursed with relationship problems for the next ten years.

Send this to fifteen people in fifteen minutes!! AND DON'T FORGET TO COPY AND PASTE AND NOT JUST FORWARD!"



Besides the whole deathwish thing and the consequences that it said could happen... I believe that the first paragraph is true. It really makes me think. =)

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PS - I got this email from Jaimee in 2006. Yeah... for that long I have kept your emails! Haha!

Under the full moon tonight

Did not realize that its past 2AM.
Having a little difficulty falling asleep.
Had this song repeating in my iPod and in my head when I woke up.


If you want to watch it... just pause my autoplaying music to the right of the screen then you can play this video. You don't have too if you don't want too. ^_^

Still struggling with myself.
Don't know why but the song makes me feel a little better every time I listen to it.
Have to try and sleep.

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New Hobby

Besides all my video games, reading books, rewriting the things I need to rewrite, preparing for the things to come and many more. There is a new hobby that I just got into today introduced by my brother.

It's called Paper Crafting.

It's really fun, very time consuming and its very entertaining!

I guess these are some of the things that will help me keep busy.

Try it out!

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Rethinking...

My dad is leaving for his work in the US in a couple of minutes. He just called saying that he is boarding and will be leaving soon. He will be absent for a week or two. Meaning to me... its going to be hard.

My boyfriend is up in the air now and has been up for a couple of hours now. I had a small conversation with him on the phone and it was really great. He will be absent for a month. Meaning to me... my chest becomes tight every time.

My dad and my boyfriend have left... two guys are not here for the time being and I am feeling the void on both sides. I have been holding it all in but sooner or later... the water-works will come. Just not now... not sure if later... but it will come.


Just really feeling down and sulking in my own self.


It will be a rough first week... I'll get by.

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Myself at the moment

I have been awake since 3am.

Most of the night.
I could not get any sleep.
So many things are going through my head.
Songs on the radio are all sad and/or love songs.

You are the only one that always pops in my head first.
Only for a month your gone but it will feel long.
Until you come back... I will wait for you.



It has only been a couple of hours and I am already feeling the void. T^T

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Just need to get it off my chest

It's only a couple more days until Graham leaves on Sunday.

I'm doing the best I can to spend time with him as much as possible before he leaves. I know it's only for one month but it still feels longer than its said.

Mother is especially on my case saying that it's only a month and that it'll pass. My father is leaving to work in the US for a couple of weeks, he's leaving on Monday and I know she is going to be acting all confident and upright that she can handle being alone but I know for a fact that she will miss him - she just won't admit it. It's all that pride in her and such... It's a little annoying that your own mother would do the exact opposite of what she is saying. Kind of makes me wonder really but she is my mother and I just have to try and see it in her perspective... somehow.

I have to admit... even though he's leaving for the Philippines for the second time we've been together, I kind of thought I wouldn't feel the way I did before. It's like its 2007 all over again, at least this time he won't miss my birthday.

Gotta keep my head up... that is if my heart would stop beating too fast.

NoteToSelf: Should really stop listening to songs that make me feel all sappy.

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Morning Thoughts

Waking up early really makes me think a lot. Whether or not the thought is highly important or just a random thought, it still comes to me.

1. Pokemon
I cannot stress ENOUGH on how addicting this game is. It has been in my life since I was born and it just keeps getting better and better. Sometimes I think I should buy the seasons on DVD from like the WAAAAYY beginning but I'm still thinking about it. UpToDate: Been playing Pokemon for a week straight. Ka-POW! xD

2. Tin Whistle
I have recently found an instrument that I can play and that is very portable. It's called a Tin Whistle. It's also known as a Penny Whistle; it looks like a recorder but the only difference is that sound that it makes and the shape of it. I enjoy playing it and making sounds that are sometimes good and sometimes bad. It doesn't matter though, have an instrument to play around with is really relaxing for me.

3. Guinea Pigs
Liksi and HinHin are the two most characteristic guinea pigs I have ever experienced. Their personalities are so unique and different that I couldn't resist but squeeze my love to them. I sometimes think they might be thinking that their caregiver is a complete idiot but just go with what I do since they get a treat out of it. Haha! They are not FAT! You know who you are =P

4. Driving
I have to say that driving is pretty fun but not when you are constantly driving to pick up people or dropping off people and you have a certain appointment that was made prior and then you'll be late etc. etc. that is when the fatigue kicks in. Also, I definitely do not like driving in the highway at night. Sometimes the roads don't even have lights to illuminate the roads... really gotta figure that one out.

5. Serious Thought(s)
School and Work
(That's it. Ha!)

6. Silly Thought
What am I going to do today so that I don't feel bored?

7. Graham
Leaving soon for the Philippines. I am feeling a sad as the day grows closer for him to leave. I kind of wish I could go with him, not only because he's leaving but I haven't been to the Philippines since I migrated here to Canada; that's a really long time. It's only for a month though so it shouldn't be that bad; I know I have other things to do like work, school, family, friends, the summer, etc. but still... not having someone you really love with you when having fun sometimes makes you miss them. I know that for sure. I just got to face it head on.

Wow... a lot of thinking in the morning. No wonder I don't like waking up too early. Haha! But its not a bad thing... it's a little self-reflection when I think about it. I'm glad I had this thoughts. ^_^

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Time for Celebration

Today is a day to celebrate for every reason possible.

Today, Graham and I celebrated our 5th Anniversary together. We have been going out for 5 years as of April 7th and it is really, in realization, that it has been half a decade now that we have been boyfriend and girlfriend. It has really been that long and it is just amazing to even think about what we both have been through.

In celebration, we went out for our celebratory dinner together at Tucker's Market Place in the Heartland area. We brought my mother along because what's an anniversary without someone celebrating it other than the person you have been with! We had our dinner and it was very good; cake was a big part of our course meal celebration, a lot of fuss-and-buss on the cake between the two of us. All three of us were full beyond belief! We could hardly walk when we left the restaurant but this place is a definite YES to have parties, get-together's and anything really.

After dinner, we went home to rest for a bit because of the full bellies we all had and checked for times for any movie we are interested in watching. We decided to watch Clash of the Titans in 3D at Empire Theaters at Square One. The movie was really great; I liked it. I remember the old version - it somewhat resembled it, not so much though but its passable. I wouldn't mind watching it again but it is really great! After the movie, I dropped him off at Kipling Station since I had to pick up my brother as well so it was convenient.

Just to reflect on the day. Having dating Graham for 5 years is just amazing. We have endured almost everything that we could possible imagine. From Day One it has been step-by-step together all the way until today. Thank you for having loved me and for loving me even some more!



Graham, it has been this long but I have still loved you for 5years for the same reasons since Day1 and it still keeps growing and going! I love you so much! Thank you baby! Thank you!

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Note To Self

Stop analyzing yourself and do something about it to CHANGE yourself FOR THE BETTER



/// Only YOU know what to do \\\


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Pokemon SoulSilver...

...IS SOOOO MADD ADDICTING!!!

Oh yeah... been playing for about over 15hours in total in a matter of two days or so I believe. Don't worry, I do sleep and work... somewhat xP

IT IS SUPER DUPER MAD ADDICTING!!! No doubt for sure! Well, for me that is... not sure about other people but you guys know what I mean! ;D

I have people asking me to get help and even giving me an intervention...
**coughcoughVIVIENcoughcough**
... but it's all good. I will make it happen! I will get through this addiction!! Wahahah! I have friends on my sides! Oh yeah!!!

It's even got this cool Pokewalker device where your Pokemon can "walk" with you. It is TOTALLY awesome! I am always always walking with my Pokemon! =D

Oh, if you are wondering... I got the Pokemon SoulSilver!

Ooooooohhhhhhh..... yyyyeeeeeaaaaahhhhh!!!

I was hoping for HeartGold but almost every store I went too ran out, I think its really popular but SoulSilver is really good too! The only difference (according to the written text) is the occurrence of the Pokemon, not a big deal. So if you're planning to buy it, don't be surprised if the HG is not there (unless your lucky! =P)

Well, off to playing Pokemon SS! Yaahhhoo!!!

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Rough day so far....

Just my luck....

> forgot to bring my stuff
> laptop is broken
> I cannot find anything that I need
> I cannot remember what I need to do

Just let everything end.

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HOLY SHIET!

What! It's already March!

What must I have to do for school....
- STUDY: for my FACS (my major) and my Media course.
- WORK: on projects, assignments and essays that are due by the end of this month.
- READ: all those articles that NEED to be read
- WRITE: all those notes that were taken in class because my eyes screw up every time I read on the screen of my laptop screen
- SUMMER SCHOOL: have to enroll and attend my summer school course to earn that credit to satisfy what needs to be satisfied
- PRACTICE: those instruments that I have to play for school. For both Cuban and Japanese music. At the same time, remember the terminologies that associate with it.

What must I have to do for my outside of school life...
- WORK: have to get into the mode of working in my job. Oh by the way, I got the job at CW! Whoohoo! =D
- SLEEP: THANK GOD for being able to catch up on sleep after months of working really hard in school
- HOMEWORK: have to keep my head in my studies at the same time as enjoying my vacation
- DISTRACTION: have to distract myself for a while since Graham is gonna be leaving for the Philippines again for one month. Even though there is a lot of things going on... there is always in between moments of thinking
- SUMMER EVENT: having a family reunion here in Toronto. Have to make sure that everything runs smooth since I'm helping out. At the same time, entertain my family members who are sleeping over at our house in the duration of the family reunion. PLUS - those random outings that I have with my family and friends; its gonna be a year to bust-and-remember!

Man... there is so much things to do and these are the only things that came at the top of my head. There is really A LOT of things to do for sure but I just gotta keep at it till this month is done. After March... I AM FREE!!! Yes baby! Yes! Gotta push myself and pace myself!

Oh.. and another thing to put in my list....
TIME FOR MYSELF: Read a good book, sleep, relax, chill with friends... anything really that is dedicated to me, myself and I! Yeah!

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New Background

Just trying out something. I am not sure but I think the pattern in the back can hurt someones eyes. LOL

Still looking for one... maybe I'll just make one. I don't know. We'll see! =P

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I really really like you.

Since Graham and I were not able to spend Valentine's Day on the day it was, we went out on our own day and celebrated it together. It was very nice... although I was really late again due to errands that had to be made and some voiced out comments that were said got me off track but other than that... it was very nice.

We hung out in Square One for about an hour. Ate KFC (romantic ain't it!) and walked around the mall just looking at things. At a certain time, I completely forgot that I don't have his gift. I was suppose to make it but I didn't have the energy the day before due to circumstances. So where is the best place to make up for it?! ... You guessed it right if you thought BULK BARN. That place is FREAKING AMAZING! I could stay there all day and just inhale everything (both metaphorically and literally xD). I told Graham that he could pick any chocolate he wants and, being him, he went straight for the chocolate covered almonds and what a coincidence (or convenient in my opinion) that it was ON SALE! .99cents/100g I think... It's a steal for me! =D but he loves that chocolate so he took as much as he wanted. =P

Besides the in between traveling, we decided to catch a movie and WE WATCHED A CHICK FLICK.... WRONG! If that would ever happen, it would probably be when we have enough money to blow or have won a good amount of money from the lottery! LOL! We watched The Wolfman (again... we are a REALLY romantic couple ;D) and it was not so bad. Lived up to the folklore story deadon. Even though the movie ended like an open book, it was really good. A lot of "blood and gore" but nothing to be afraid of. A little cringe here and there too.

So to end our "Romantic Date," we decided to go to Pub near my place. When we arrived, we got there around 10 pas 10pm-ish. We ordered our food and beverages (on the side note: it was .35cents/wing) and our order did not come till an hour later. I was MAD hungry, and a little upset but the place has its reputation so I forgive em. =) So after eating... I know I wouldn't be able to handle the wait again so we got into my car and went to a romantic dinner at 11PM at night. Oh yeah... what cannot be more romantic than McDonald's!!! That was our romantic dinner and it was soooo satisfying!! Sharing nuggets (cause thats what we can afford. Haha!) and for dessert... apple pie. Gotta love that apple pie!

Having these small spontaneous outings are really nice... even though our date was for Valentine's... we still did not know what to do. It's just fun talking about what is going to happen next. Gotta love it!

Oh.. and what is a "Romantic Date" without the guy giving gifts to his girlfriend. Graham got these for me.. he did not have too, I was really happy just to spend the day with him but he always wants to be about 0.5 step ahead xD

A Series of Unfortunate Events: The Hostile Hospital (Book#8)
I just love this series. Even though its for young kids to read, the story is really addicting. I'm collecting all of it... I have #1 till current and is still growing

House: Season Four
Oh yes he did! I could not believe that he got this for me. I mean... DVDs are expensive... especially House series! I was planning on getting it once I earn my pay but I guess he's just beating me to it. Only one more to get until I am updated!


Meet Grahammy Bear (He named it... not me)
This bear is so soft and warm. It has a note sealed in the envelope but I'm not going to show it! =P

He really does not have to do all this for me. Sometimes simple things are always good but its always nice to be treated really special every once in a while. =)

I really really like you, Graham. ^_^... that's how it was said before it turned to love.

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anyone?

Anyone have methods for relieving stress?

Or tips for relaxation?

Natural and cheap would be nice too =P

Would sure like to know some.

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At the moment...

I really wish it would come.

Reading the different reasons for not arriving gives me but little reassurance

Just arrive already so that I won't have to worry/wonder anymore...

Please please please!!

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Feelings atm

Sometimes I feel I am out of the loop.

A lot of people seem to be going ahead and using their higher knowledge of "whatever the topic may be" so that they could put their finger on it and it will be more likely to be true and then the discussion will end. I don't know if its just me being sensitive (which I hope I am not) but sometimes I think it kills the moment of having a nice and continuous conversation.

Especially with some of my friends where when I talk to them... they have to use what they have learned in school and apply it to their everyday lives (which I give 10x of koodos to them) but don't come up and say:

"**insert word here**... you know, its **insert definition of word here**. Didn't you learn it at York?"

It bothers me so much to hear that... I don't learn the same thing as you! I'm not in the same class as you or program as you. Heck! I don't even go to your school! How the heck am I suppose to know a word that only you are expose too. You're probably in some science or natural science, math, english, anthro, politics or whatever program you are. Great job to you that your doing all that things in your program and like to express it to the world but don't put people down in the process of it. I am sometimes so close to hurting you but you know me, I don't want to hurt anyone.

I guess this was more of a rant than a feelings atm huh? LOL
I hope today gets better... >__<

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To my Friends:

I have been noticing that a lot of you have been getting upset for whatever reason they may have... whether it is personal or social or anything that has happened to get you guys upset.

I personally know that I cannot everything to make you feel better because sometimes a person just cannot be there by your side all the time physically.

So I just wanted to maybe help cheer them up with this small image...



I really hope it cheered you guys up a little. Just trying to help. I love you guys and please cheer up soon. It takes more muscles to frown (and produces negative energy) than to smile!

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After all that...

... I made the decision that will save my butt.

I just have to pull a really heavy load next year... >__< yikes!

I will really miss it but I am content with what I did. It won't affect it negatively anymore.

I will try to use the skills I learned as much as possible.

Thank you for everything! d(^_^)b

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So early in the morning!!

My mom and dad woke me up at 5:15 in the morning so that I could drive my dad to work. ROTFL!

Dropped my dad off... ate early breakfast at Timmy's beside Philip Pocock Secondary School (which is at Tomken) which by the way isn't bad. Soup and Bagel combo! BRAPP! Yummy Hearty Potato Bacon Soup! Oh yeah! xD Mommy had a croissant and coffee! =)

Went to Metro Supermarket to buy ingredients for a later breakfast for my brothers and a visitor... namely Vivien who is coming by in about 30 minutes or so LOLz!

So I gotta get ready... it's Saturday and I hope today will be just as awesome as yesterday!

Refer to Jaimee's or Vivien's blog if need be!

Oh! Also when I got on Facebook... the "Educational Video" is up! ;D Teehee!!

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New Blog Layout

I forgot to mention that I am trying out these templates things for the blog.

I wanted to try the templates that you can get from websites that offer it for free and you can use it in your blog.

I like the one I have now (DOMO) but in the future, I would like to compose my own template and make it myself. It looks a little complicated when I look at it (the HTML version that is) but I'll see what happens. ^_^

But for now... I'll stick with this.

DOMO

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Attack of the allergies...

Last night I got randomly attacked by allergies that were completely spontaneous.

Talking to Graham on the phone when all of a sudden my nose started to clog and I couldn't breathe then my right eye started to itch and swell then BOOM! Started sneezing and wheezing... I was getting an allergy attack!

What a bummer especially when I'm talking to someone on the phone... Why allergy! Why at that time!! q(=_=)p Not cool cause I had to cut the conversation short since the Benedryl I took has the side effect of drowsiness. The allergy owes me a phone call!

On the other hand... I will have to hunt whatever caused my allergy. You can attack me but you can't hide from me! RAWR!

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Last hours of the day...

... I'm going to listening to music and play WoW and that is that!

Freaking studying for the whole day... it is causing my head to spin! Arrgghh!!

Note to self:
DO NOT drink chocolate milk from those cartons... bad bad idea!

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Activity for the day...

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

. . . S T U D Y . . .

And maybe after that, I could play WoW or watch DVDs. Either or... that is what I am rewarding myself with.
Oh.. food as well, can't do without food!

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Congratulations!!!

Just wanted to congratulate my older brother for FINALLY passing his G1 test after several attempts to do so!

Now you've just gotta wait for 8 - 12 months before you can do your G2 but on the other hand, go to driving school! =D

I am mighty proud of you!!

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I can't listen to the prof...

The prof is getting off topic then coming back then getting off again... LOL

Just surfing FB and now currently playing "Sorority Life" and this new game that I recently found "School of Wizardry"

Hahaha! This is entertaining to me!

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In the library...

What am I doing here! LOL

Just thought of being in some place that is not cold and a little quiet to be in.

On the other hand, I am doing work at the same time. Took a little break so I'm blogging. Teehee!

Back to work I suppose >__<

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Headaches

I've been having major headaches ever since Winter Term started.

I have those headaches that are really massive and knock your head right off and sometimes I have those lingering headaches that comes and goes. So irritating... I don't want to drink any of those Tylenol or Advil or anything like that... I don't know why but I don't want too. Do you think it'll help?

For one, I know a couple reasons to why I get headaches...

1) Studying late at night
2) Getting up really early to study in the morning
3) A lot of thinking (in general)
4) Stressing (in general)
5) Lack of physical activity

That is probably the Top 5 that in my list. I should probably try and fix myself at now... listening to music isn't helping as much... reading isn't helping either and watching TV is a big NO. It just hurts all over...

*sigh* ... maybe I just need sleep

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Just blogging... in Volleyball courts!

I'm here in Victory Volleyball where my brother goes for his drop in volleyball every Monday and his league every Thursday I believe. Just waiting for him to be done.

If you guys are interested on seeing this place... here is the website:

Victory Volleyball

It's a pretty good place to have volleyball whether you are good at it or not. Sometimes I think there is dodge ball too but I'm not sure. I just overheard it some time ago but I do have to say that this place is really a good spot for volleyball courts... and its indoors!

Anyways, I'm not playing volleyball if you are wondering so I am just here on my brothers laptop trying to read the readings I need to do for tomorrows class. Sad to say now.... I'm just blogging because I got bored and I realized that I cannot read the readings on the monitor. It hurts my head and especially my eyes... I think they are screwed up temporarily for now. >__<

By the way... I'm driving LOL!

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You Know...

I am hungry... ALL THE TIME!

So I eat what I can but if I can't find anything to my interest, I make what I love to eat most...


wait for it...


PEANUT BUTTER, NUTELLA AND HONEY SANDWICH



It's so good... it makes me cry with joy every time I bite into it. Enjoy with a cup of cold milk!

Then again, I ate popcorn, chips, cheesecake, chocolate, burger, ham, sausages, cocktail wieners, orange juice, cheese, garlic bread, rice, chicken, beef, pork, veggies... I forgot the rest.

Which reminds me... I really enjoy this clip from 17 Again

'17 Again' What Are You Eating? @ Yahoo! Video

I just love this scene!

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How could I forget...

... TO DRINK MY MILK!!!

Urrgghh!! How stupid of me! It was only today that I did not drink milk and I totally bombed it.

I always drink milk before I take a quiz or a test or anything that requires me to be put to the test. It's so frustrating! Kept on studying and didn't drink milk... that's how I got a freaking BRAIN FART! AARRGGHH!!

Ps.
Too tired to blog anymore... Wednesday is my longest day in school so I'm going to sleep.

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Just finished...

... my one hour quiz for Photography, Film and Popular Culture.

Verdict:
I think I did not do so bad. I know I got the information correct but how I was suppose to answer them, I'm not so sure. =[

My prof didn't give us the format of the quiz but gave us the terms to study. When I got the quiz, its 10 questions about comparing one thing to another and mentioning the similarities and differences.

I really hope I did well. >__<

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I LOVE...

...CANDY APPLE'S FROM ROCKY MOUNTAIN CHOCOLATES!

Freeing myself from the dread of school work that is already piling up and will never ever end until it kills you, I bought myself a candy apple and it is cheering me up!

Although I still can't escape the work load... there are things, even the little things, that can really make a person smile even for a little while.



Cherish the little things.

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Thankful...

... for Raymond Salaber's cooking!! LOL

I've been craving for nice meat for some reason. Maybe its cause my parents been buying a lot of seafood lately, not saying that I don't like seafood or anything cause believe me I do oh-so-ever love seafood, I think I just needed a little break from all the fishy stuff (pun intended =P).

Raymond cooked meatloaf w/ mushrooms for his mom since it was her birthday on Saturday, which I couldn't go to because I was chilling with my friends and it was last minute notice T^T. So I just ate it today and my craving is KAPUT! =D

Well, off to eating the fruit cheesecake that came from them as well! It's sooo yummy! Yay!

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Our Mini-Celebration

I just got home after an amazing date.

After school, I met up with Graham downtown. He kept it a secret on what was happening today. I begged him to give me a hint but he would not budge so I gave up and went along with it.

He brought me ice skating at the ice rink outside of City Hall and it is my third time going there but it always excites me no matter how many times I go there. It was really fun just skating around in circles but it eventually became so cold that my toes and fingers were freezing even though I wore double everything and we stopped and chilled with my mother since she works nearby.

After chilling with my mom, we went near Osgoode area and ate at PizzaPizza. After our HUGE FEAST, we went to ScotiaBank Theatre and, to my expectation, Avatar IMAX 3D is sold out and Graham really got frustrated and annoyed because he really wanted to watch it. I think out of all of our friends, we have not watched it yet. I had to calm him down so we decided to watch "The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus" and I've got to say, its a little confusing but very entertaining!

After watching it, we went to my brothers work place and ate our "after dinner" meal, 15 piece sashimi with rice, water and Sake. The Sake really hit the spot.

And after all this... I didn't realize but he wished me a Happy 4 Years and 9 Months. I completely did not remember what day it is or what was happening. It was on Thursday and I was just very surprising to me and unexpected.

I am happy to have someone like you, Graham. You are special to me that cannot be imagined anywhere but here. Thank you so much for everything. I love you, Graham.

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So I just woke up...

... and I am going to be UBER LATE for class. =__='

Not a really great way to start my weekend since my class is a tutorial and I should be going now instead of typing this. TEEHEE!!

On the other hand though... I really love sleeping-in! xD

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Food Moment!!

I was craving for Tim Horton's doughnuts and french vanilla during my communications class. When class was done, I shuffled money in my pocket and I only had $1.50. T^T I can't even afford a drink but if I bought a doughnut... I don't have anything to wash it down. So me being sad, I took the bus back to Square One and my dad picked me up. I told my dad that we needed to go grocery shopping cause we ran out of milk and some other supplies so we went to that Chinese place called B-Trust.

At B-Trust, we bought stuff and stuff and eventually we got to the bread area. I thought "YES BREAD!" Then when I looked over, I didn't want to get bread anymore.

I told my dad and we were laughing because....

There were birds pecking at the bread that were outside even though it was cling wrapped for seal of "freshness"!

We were laughing so hard and started backing away from the bread section! Haha!

I'm also excited for dinner tonight because I CAN FINALLY EAT CLAMS!!! I FREAKING LOVE CLAMS! ESPECIALLY MANILA CLAMS! They are my favourite clams EVER!!! ZOMGSH! I'm already smelling them being cooked and I cannot wait for dinner! Yummy Yumm Yumm!!! Hahaha! So excited! >__<

On the other hand though... I got my Timmy's! Whoohoo! Also... I'm SOOOOOOOO awesomely happy that if you buy a beverage from them, doughnuts are only $0.49!! THATS CRAZY!!!! So I bought 3 doughnuts with my French Vanilla beverage!

Me and my doughnuts! LMFAO!!! xD

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Policy on marks?

I woke up this morning panicking over my studies. I do not know if I am passing them or not. I called Vivien (and she knows how I am) and I am very disappointed at Andrew laughing at me but I do not care because he is my friend and friends need to laugh at each other once in a while.... but not meanly or rudely... that is just not right.

Anyways, so I spoke to Vivien asking what I should do and she gave me some options. I also called Graham (who I miss very much dearly... still getting used to being alone in the campus all the time... well, most of the time but bleh) and told him about what is going on and pretty much gave the same options as Vivien gave me. Also known as:

ASK YOUR TEACHER FOR MARKS OR HOW YOU ARE DOING

I did so and well... apparently there is a policy that they have to follow. Oh yeah... I did not hear about this. Apparently, they are not allowed to give out marks to their students unless they are given permission by the upper people there or like some time during the middle of the term that they are allowed to give it. I can ask how I did on a test, quiz, presentation, assignments, etc. but I cannot ask for an overall mark. They can give you hints, like "You're doing fine" or "You could step it up a little" (which is sometimes helpful and sometimes not) but they cannot give you the actual mark on how you are doing.

That's just mind boggling to me. =__= So I am still a little bit and I mean a tinsy winsy tiny itty bitty panicking about my marks but I guess I'll just suck it up and keep on going. No used to dropping courses and figuring out in the end that you're doing good enough that will still get you the credits. *sigh*

Other than that... I got to have a 2 hours and 5 minutes conversation on the phone with Graham which actually made me feel pretty darn good of myself! MSN doesn't seem to cut it out... we hardly make conversation there. MSN is EVIL!!! LOL I'm just joking. It's convenient every once in a while but its not always there to send messages.

I should go back to studying. Reading, writing, remembering and all that is frying my brain ever so slowly! Warahahahha!!!

Come to think of it... Graham and I should do the phone conversation thing more often, its actually not as bad as I thought it would be. Conversations run smoothly and quicker that way but I should remember to do them during the time when it is free... I forgot that I was using daytime minutes... hopefully I didn't go over >_< LMFAO!

This is probably what I was doing... ROTFL at the LOLcats


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