I left my amazing strawberry toast on the table at home. :'(
It will be OK, tummy. I will find something that will stop your grumblingness soon.
*~CheckedOut!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
You know what...
I have never been so upset in the dead of night with my brother.
For so long I have been giving up my time to either pick you up or drop you off to places that are out of my way (whether I offered it or asked if you needed it) just because you are my family and the only time (and I mean THE ONLY TIME) where I asked for you to just pick me up after school at the GO Station in Square One during this blistering cold of the weather, you could not do it because you have someone who is waiting for you who you are going to hang out with and go out on a "date" or what ever the fuck you left me for so I had to bus home. The point that I am getting at is not because I had to bus home by myself... its not that at all.
I always thought it was FAMILY FIRST... I thought that is what it always is and I know that it is always like that because we were brought up that way and we were brought up by the same parents. And now this person of interest comes along and you just fucking get irritated because my bus is late and all I asked was to pick me up. The bus did not arrive until 30 minutes after the initial time and you could not even wait for that long because this person of interest is waiting in the car with you.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ABOUT!? Do you know how many times I give up my time that I spend with Graham just to attend to what you asked for or even my friends if I ever get the chance to hang out with them. ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!! Graham gets fed up with it but I reason with him because he took the time to understand that, to me, family comes first no matter what the circumstance and now this happens and you cannot come to just fucking pick me up and bring me home... or even wait for heavens sake. You do not understand how upsetting and disappointed I am with you. This one favour... THIS ONE FUCKING FAVOUR I ask of you and you cannot do it because the person of interest that you have is waiting with you in the car. You could not even wait.. you could not even explain that family comes first to the person of interest or something or anything. Just because the person of interest is in the same car that we drive, you do not want to do this one favour when I have done so many for you in the past. So all the things that I have done, all the time that I gave to do what you ask because I am your sister who loves her brothers very much and this is what you show me.
I have never been so angry and disappointed with you EVER in my life as far as i know. I have never thought that you would just fucking ditch me or just even wait for me. Do you know how much that fucking hurts to know that your own sibling does not have your back when you ask for it when I have always done everything that I could do help you in hopes that maybe one time you would repay it back?! Have you even thought of that... you fucking shit head. I know I will regret all the shit things that I wrote here but I cannot just comprehend in my head alone how this one simple favour of picking me up and bringing me home, you cannot do. It fucking makes me sick to my gut to even realize that I cannot even rely on my brother to hold my hand when I really need it.
Now that I think of it... all the time I gave to attend to you when you needed it is a complete waste. I just cannot figure out how you could just turn around leave me there. I know its a simple task to ask but I still do not understand. Everything is just back and forth and probably blabber that is coming out but I just want to fucking break something to make me feel better or cause some sort of destruction that will release this annoying thing away from me. I hate to rant but I have too... or else it will just be a stupid thing that I left inside of me in hopes that it will just be a lesson.
You are my brother and I still love you but shit man, thats so fucking cold...
`~CheckedOut!
For so long I have been giving up my time to either pick you up or drop you off to places that are out of my way (whether I offered it or asked if you needed it) just because you are my family and the only time (and I mean THE ONLY TIME) where I asked for you to just pick me up after school at the GO Station in Square One during this blistering cold of the weather, you could not do it because you have someone who is waiting for you who you are going to hang out with and go out on a "date" or what ever the fuck you left me for so I had to bus home. The point that I am getting at is not because I had to bus home by myself... its not that at all.
I always thought it was FAMILY FIRST... I thought that is what it always is and I know that it is always like that because we were brought up that way and we were brought up by the same parents. And now this person of interest comes along and you just fucking get irritated because my bus is late and all I asked was to pick me up. The bus did not arrive until 30 minutes after the initial time and you could not even wait for that long because this person of interest is waiting in the car with you.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ABOUT!? Do you know how many times I give up my time that I spend with Graham just to attend to what you asked for or even my friends if I ever get the chance to hang out with them. ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!! Graham gets fed up with it but I reason with him because he took the time to understand that, to me, family comes first no matter what the circumstance and now this happens and you cannot come to just fucking pick me up and bring me home... or even wait for heavens sake. You do not understand how upsetting and disappointed I am with you. This one favour... THIS ONE FUCKING FAVOUR I ask of you and you cannot do it because the person of interest that you have is waiting with you in the car. You could not even wait.. you could not even explain that family comes first to the person of interest or something or anything. Just because the person of interest is in the same car that we drive, you do not want to do this one favour when I have done so many for you in the past. So all the things that I have done, all the time that I gave to do what you ask because I am your sister who loves her brothers very much and this is what you show me.
I have never been so angry and disappointed with you EVER in my life as far as i know. I have never thought that you would just fucking ditch me or just even wait for me. Do you know how much that fucking hurts to know that your own sibling does not have your back when you ask for it when I have always done everything that I could do help you in hopes that maybe one time you would repay it back?! Have you even thought of that... you fucking shit head. I know I will regret all the shit things that I wrote here but I cannot just comprehend in my head alone how this one simple favour of picking me up and bringing me home, you cannot do. It fucking makes me sick to my gut to even realize that I cannot even rely on my brother to hold my hand when I really need it.
Now that I think of it... all the time I gave to attend to you when you needed it is a complete waste. I just cannot figure out how you could just turn around leave me there. I know its a simple task to ask but I still do not understand. Everything is just back and forth and probably blabber that is coming out but I just want to fucking break something to make me feel better or cause some sort of destruction that will release this annoying thing away from me. I hate to rant but I have too... or else it will just be a stupid thing that I left inside of me in hopes that it will just be a lesson.
You are my brother and I still love you but shit man, thats so fucking cold...
`~CheckedOut!
Monday, January 24, 2011
You... who me?
Yes YOU!
Why the fuck would you do that to yourself or even think that way?
Get your shit together!
Fuck!
`~CheckedOut!
Why the fuck would you do that to yourself or even think that way?
Get your shit together!
Fuck!
`~CheckedOut!
It is official...
I am turning into a loner and a stalker, as well as an obsessive person.
Shit.
`~CheckedOut!
Shit.
`~CheckedOut!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I cannot sleep...
I am trying to sleep but I cannot fall asleep; I am going to be sleepless tomorrow.
So many things running through my mind... it is mostly you though.
There are so many decisions that I have to make but I cannot, it is just everywhere that I cannot put them in order.
But I will put your words in use and try it out; I do not know if it will work or not but it is worth a shot.
I miss you already and I love you very much.
`~CheckedOut!
So many things running through my mind... it is mostly you though.
There are so many decisions that I have to make but I cannot, it is just everywhere that I cannot put them in order.
But I will put your words in use and try it out; I do not know if it will work or not but it is worth a shot.
I miss you already and I love you very much.
`~CheckedOut!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Thoughts
So I am failing this challenge REAL BAD but I will put myself up to date once I get my pictures into the computer. I mean I got them but I just did not have time to post them so I will make it! I promise! Haha!
Another thing... I am very disappointed that I could not claim the top prize when I took part and won the top prize of a hot wing eating contest; 16 wings in total, 4 rounds. It is a really big bummer because it was a $30 or $50 gift certificate from Aramark; basically I would have had $30 or $50 worth of food expenses and I could not get it. Even though I technically got a free lunch today, I still would have liked it if I got the prize. Graham got his... lucky bumm.
I do not know what I am going to do. I have figure things out. What to do? What to do? =/
`~CheckedOut!
Another thing... I am very disappointed that I could not claim the top prize when I took part and won the top prize of a hot wing eating contest; 16 wings in total, 4 rounds. It is a really big bummer because it was a $30 or $50 gift certificate from Aramark; basically I would have had $30 or $50 worth of food expenses and I could not get it. Even though I technically got a free lunch today, I still would have liked it if I got the prize. Graham got his... lucky bumm.
I do not know what I am going to do. I have figure things out. What to do? What to do? =/
`~CheckedOut!
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