Happy Face! Happy Face! It is Jaesel's Happy Face! =D
!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
Where ever you may be, whether it is at home, your family/friends house, another city, another provice or another country, I just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year and that everything will go according to the way you wish you want it to be!
This is my regular face. No make up, no touch ups, just my face and the camera. YAY for regular face!
UPDATE So I watched Tron Legacy yesterday with Graham. I have to say, my brother is right; watching Tron in IMAX 3D has more exhilarating experience than the others. I recommend people to watch it in that terms. It is not the greatest movie nor was it the not-greatest movie... its floating in between.
We went to Tuckers Marketplace afterward for dinner. I think there was a problem with their potatoes that I ate cause I had a really really bad reaction to them. Hopefully it was only for that night because if it is going to be always like that, I will have to take action. Luckily though, the Wal-Mart Superstore was there so we walked to it and bought the "local" version of Peptobismal; it worked. Haha!
It was a fun date. We have not had a date date in a while. We've always been chilling with friends which does not bother us at all, it is sometimes good to have time to chill with the friends and it is always fun but in every relationship, some alone time is good. I love alone time.
Well, I gotta go. I have two journals that are due when I get back to school. Geez... school work during the holidays. It's not a holiday if I have to still do school work. >:(
I see a lot of people enjoying the holidays with all their smiles and celebrations with family, friends and relatives. Everyone looks like they are in a jolly and happy mood whenever this season comes even though it is such a short while but they look like they are having a blast. People visit other people, people exchange happy moments and just listening to their conversations is enough to know that they are enjoying their selves this season.
As for me, this holiday is a piss off through out. I am sick of being out of the circle because of circumstances which becomes a piss off in the end. I have been patient and I try to be good but in the end, I end up the one suffering. I cannot pull myself out of it because there is no other way whenever I think of a way out. I am sick of being the only one who is the odd one out and I have to dig my way through just to understand and know what is happening between things. I am sick of being the last to know on things and being the one being pitied but it is too late to do anything.
I honestly cannot do anything but just merely say FUCK IT. I could go on with this rant but I will not. There is no point on spewing out like this, it will not change anything. All this does is share how negative I am inside and when this is read, people will start wondering if I am OK or if I need a shoulder or some crap like that. What ever is in my mind and what ever is in my chest... it has been damaged and rattled enough for me to know that I cannot fix it to put it back together in a simple manner. This excerpt is not even quarter of what I am feeling inside because if I splurge any more, I will probably say something that I wish I did not say so I will stop right here for now.
Maybe some of you have already watched this movie by Wong Fu Productions but I would like to share this short film with any of you who has about 35 minutes to spare and watch it.
I enjoyed it very much and I actually will watch it again and again. It is something that I thought would be nice to share to anyone who is interested in watching a comedic/action-packed film.
I hope you enjoy it.
UPDATE I am very happy that I was able to see my Mel-Mel yesterday. Seeing your face and your physical being really made me happy. I am really happy that I was able to share even the little things with you and I really hope that we will see each other again before you leave and play kinect! Haha! I love you and I am happy that you are back even though it is for a short while only.
I hope I could get to see and chill with my friends. I don't think I have had the opportunity to actually chill with them in a long while because of all the things that I have to do for my family during the Christmas season. It gets a little lonesome at some points when I cannot hang out with my friends the way I want too. I hope I do... at some point at least.
I have keep working on my over-the-holiday-assignments that are due when I get back. I have been slacking for a while so I have to start getting on the ball on these things. It is really something that keeps my mind to go back into the studies. T^T
I also have to get Christmas presents. I have to think of what to get and the mall is a little hectic when entered. Luckily there are stores that are 24 hours so thats not so bad LOL
I am going to need a lot of time management for these things. :P BLEH!
I wonder what I am getting for Christmas this year? Hmmm... xP `~CheckedOut!
I was not able to book off today or tomorrow from work.
It's my moms birthday today and no one spent it with her. She was all alone for most of the day and now she is just at home cooking. She is going to cook instant noodles just so that there is some sort of consumption of noodles during her birthday.
I feel really terrible. I really feel that I failed as a daughter to not be able to spend one of the most precious days in someones life; especially the person who brought me to this world.
I want to make up for it but how can I? I found something that I think she would like but I do not know if she will be happy. Maybe I'll go somewhere. There has to be something I can do.
I am sorry mom but I really do want to wish you a Happy Birthday. I love you.
I finally slept in today after not sleeping well at all this week. There is still one more week left until Christmas vacation but I am still busy. I have to catch up on stuff and work on things that I need to work on. Oh well, that is what university life is about. I clearly need a break soon... I know my body is really messed up.
Dang! It's already December... meaning the year is almost over and this is where I usually think about all the things that happened this year. I wonder...
`~CheckedOut!
Ps -- I found out what my bottled anger was. It is just my feeling of not being able to see your face or hear your voice in person. I guess I kept in bottled in and hide away but it eventually burst open.
