One Big Note

I was cleaning out my Hotmail because I got bored and waiting for my laundry to finish. I was reading and remembering all the emails that I have received (and have not deleted =P) and its very interesting to re-read all the emails that I have received. Whether it is a forward or an actual typed email... it really brought back memories.

This in particular jumped out and I thought of sharing it.


"When Your feeling alone like no one cares read this cuz its absolutely true:

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
At least fifteen people in this world love you.
The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
There are at least two people in this world that would die for you.
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look.
Always remember the compliments you've received.
Forget the rude remarks.

So if you are a loving friend, send this to everyone on your list including the person that sent it to you. You have just been DEATHWISHED!

Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. Something good will happen to you between one and four o'clock pm tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life. If you break this chain YOU will be cursed with relationship problems for the next ten years.

Send this to fifteen people in fifteen minutes!! AND DON'T FORGET TO COPY AND PASTE AND NOT JUST FORWARD!"



Besides the whole deathwish thing and the consequences that it said could happen... I believe that the first paragraph is true. It really makes me think. =)

`~CheckedOut!

PS - I got this email from Jaimee in 2006. Yeah... for that long I have kept your emails! Haha!

Under the full moon tonight

Did not realize that its past 2AM.
Having a little difficulty falling asleep.
Had this song repeating in my iPod and in my head when I woke up.


If you want to watch it... just pause my autoplaying music to the right of the screen then you can play this video. You don't have too if you don't want too. ^_^

Still struggling with myself.
Don't know why but the song makes me feel a little better every time I listen to it.
Have to try and sleep.

`~CheckedOut!

New Hobby

Besides all my video games, reading books, rewriting the things I need to rewrite, preparing for the things to come and many more. There is a new hobby that I just got into today introduced by my brother.

It's called Paper Crafting.

It's really fun, very time consuming and its very entertaining!

I guess these are some of the things that will help me keep busy.

Try it out!

`~CheckedOut!

Rethinking...

My dad is leaving for his work in the US in a couple of minutes. He just called saying that he is boarding and will be leaving soon. He will be absent for a week or two. Meaning to me... its going to be hard.

My boyfriend is up in the air now and has been up for a couple of hours now. I had a small conversation with him on the phone and it was really great. He will be absent for a month. Meaning to me... my chest becomes tight every time.

My dad and my boyfriend have left... two guys are not here for the time being and I am feeling the void on both sides. I have been holding it all in but sooner or later... the water-works will come. Just not now... not sure if later... but it will come.


Just really feeling down and sulking in my own self.


It will be a rough first week... I'll get by.

`~CheckedOut!

Myself at the moment

I have been awake since 3am.

Most of the night.
I could not get any sleep.
So many things are going through my head.
Songs on the radio are all sad and/or love songs.

You are the only one that always pops in my head first.
Only for a month your gone but it will feel long.
Until you come back... I will wait for you.



It has only been a couple of hours and I am already feeling the void. T^T

`~CheckedOut!

Just need to get it off my chest

It's only a couple more days until Graham leaves on Sunday.

I'm doing the best I can to spend time with him as much as possible before he leaves. I know it's only for one month but it still feels longer than its said.

Mother is especially on my case saying that it's only a month and that it'll pass. My father is leaving to work in the US for a couple of weeks, he's leaving on Monday and I know she is going to be acting all confident and upright that she can handle being alone but I know for a fact that she will miss him - she just won't admit it. It's all that pride in her and such... It's a little annoying that your own mother would do the exact opposite of what she is saying. Kind of makes me wonder really but she is my mother and I just have to try and see it in her perspective... somehow.

I have to admit... even though he's leaving for the Philippines for the second time we've been together, I kind of thought I wouldn't feel the way I did before. It's like its 2007 all over again, at least this time he won't miss my birthday.

Gotta keep my head up... that is if my heart would stop beating too fast.

NoteToSelf: Should really stop listening to songs that make me feel all sappy.

`~CheckedOut!

Morning Thoughts

Waking up early really makes me think a lot. Whether or not the thought is highly important or just a random thought, it still comes to me.

1. Pokemon
I cannot stress ENOUGH on how addicting this game is. It has been in my life since I was born and it just keeps getting better and better. Sometimes I think I should buy the seasons on DVD from like the WAAAAYY beginning but I'm still thinking about it. UpToDate: Been playing Pokemon for a week straight. Ka-POW! xD

2. Tin Whistle
I have recently found an instrument that I can play and that is very portable. It's called a Tin Whistle. It's also known as a Penny Whistle; it looks like a recorder but the only difference is that sound that it makes and the shape of it. I enjoy playing it and making sounds that are sometimes good and sometimes bad. It doesn't matter though, have an instrument to play around with is really relaxing for me.

3. Guinea Pigs
Liksi and HinHin are the two most characteristic guinea pigs I have ever experienced. Their personalities are so unique and different that I couldn't resist but squeeze my love to them. I sometimes think they might be thinking that their caregiver is a complete idiot but just go with what I do since they get a treat out of it. Haha! They are not FAT! You know who you are =P

4. Driving
I have to say that driving is pretty fun but not when you are constantly driving to pick up people or dropping off people and you have a certain appointment that was made prior and then you'll be late etc. etc. that is when the fatigue kicks in. Also, I definitely do not like driving in the highway at night. Sometimes the roads don't even have lights to illuminate the roads... really gotta figure that one out.

5. Serious Thought(s)
School and Work
(That's it. Ha!)

6. Silly Thought
What am I going to do today so that I don't feel bored?

7. Graham
Leaving soon for the Philippines. I am feeling a sad as the day grows closer for him to leave. I kind of wish I could go with him, not only because he's leaving but I haven't been to the Philippines since I migrated here to Canada; that's a really long time. It's only for a month though so it shouldn't be that bad; I know I have other things to do like work, school, family, friends, the summer, etc. but still... not having someone you really love with you when having fun sometimes makes you miss them. I know that for sure. I just got to face it head on.

Wow... a lot of thinking in the morning. No wonder I don't like waking up too early. Haha! But its not a bad thing... it's a little self-reflection when I think about it. I'm glad I had this thoughts. ^_^

`~CheckedOut!

Time for Celebration

Today is a day to celebrate for every reason possible.

Today, Graham and I celebrated our 5th Anniversary together. We have been going out for 5 years as of April 7th and it is really, in realization, that it has been half a decade now that we have been boyfriend and girlfriend. It has really been that long and it is just amazing to even think about what we both have been through.

In celebration, we went out for our celebratory dinner together at Tucker's Market Place in the Heartland area. We brought my mother along because what's an anniversary without someone celebrating it other than the person you have been with! We had our dinner and it was very good; cake was a big part of our course meal celebration, a lot of fuss-and-buss on the cake between the two of us. All three of us were full beyond belief! We could hardly walk when we left the restaurant but this place is a definite YES to have parties, get-together's and anything really.

After dinner, we went home to rest for a bit because of the full bellies we all had and checked for times for any movie we are interested in watching. We decided to watch Clash of the Titans in 3D at Empire Theaters at Square One. The movie was really great; I liked it. I remember the old version - it somewhat resembled it, not so much though but its passable. I wouldn't mind watching it again but it is really great! After the movie, I dropped him off at Kipling Station since I had to pick up my brother as well so it was convenient.

Just to reflect on the day. Having dating Graham for 5 years is just amazing. We have endured almost everything that we could possible imagine. From Day One it has been step-by-step together all the way until today. Thank you for having loved me and for loving me even some more!



Graham, it has been this long but I have still loved you for 5years for the same reasons since Day1 and it still keeps growing and going! I love you so much! Thank you baby! Thank you!

`~CheckedOut!

Note To Self

Stop analyzing yourself and do something about it to CHANGE yourself FOR THE BETTER



/// Only YOU know what to do \\\


`~CheckedOut!