Its past 2am...

... and why am I still awake!?

1. I have to wait for my laundry to finish because my uniform smells like rain water because of the rain from the thunder storm and lightening.

2. Getting my stuff ready for work.

3. I cannot sleep.

Three simple reasons to why I am still awake past 2am. Did I mention that I have work at 9am today?! Well, I do. So poo!!

Haha! I am going to run on will-power and whatever beverage and food that I can get my hands on.

Wahahaha! Wish me luck!! >_<

`~CheckedOut!

On the other hand...

I am enjoying watching the thunder and lightening outside my window. I like it very much.

NTS - Train harder.

`~CheckedOut!

Mini-Update

I have not been able to write on my blog for the many reasons that occupy me and for reasons that when I want to write, its something like 3 o'clock in the morning. I just thought of updating this for the benefit of myself and of course to share whats been up with me and at the same time read your blogs and see whats up with you.

I looked at a calendar and I realized that there are only a couple more weeks till the beginning of school and the end of summer. Time has been passing by so fast that I did not even recognize it up until I looked at a calendar. I think part of why it felt fast is because I worked five times a week, pulling hours like mad. In the end, all the earned money has been spent on food, paying for the summer course, buying things for the summer course, help pay tuition for next year, helping out family issues, weekly needs and all that. I really do not have a lot in my bank but I am glad that I did not use it on things that are unimportant.

I do have to say that I really did miss a lot in the summer. I missed the rib fest that would come here for the weekend, I missed family outings and many more that I cannot think of at the moment. What I truly missed out on it hanging out with my friends and family and also my boyfriend. Since the summer began, I became a workaholic. I wanted to work to earn the money and spend the money when need be, especially when it comes to chilling with friends and family. I ended up working so much that I did not have time for any of it because of the schedule that was posted up and schedules that I made because of the circumstances of things that I have to follow. I only realized it when all my friends birthdays were here and mine too. I realized that I have not seen my friends to chill since school ended whether they are from my school or other schools. Also, I missed my best friends birthday party because I could not get it off and foremost, I was not able to celebrate my birthday with my friends. I just realized that this summer was not bad but nor was it good. I ended up feeling sorry for myself because I became a workaholic and did not find time or at least I could not get time off to just enjoy myself and with friends and family. I am pretty cheesed about it but the summer is almost over and there is only so much time left until everything is back to school mode.

What else is there... *sigh* I do not know. I will just leave it for next time. There is too much. At the moment, I really do feel a little down about it now.

`~CheckedOut!

Aims in August

For the month of August, I am aiming for a number of things. I will refer to this list to see if I can accomplish them. I might add more to the list as I keep going but that is what I want to do.

Aims in August List

• GET MORE SLEEP - all the missed sleep missed in the previous months are to be regained this month


• SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY - even if it is just a simple being in the same room kind of thing


• SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY FRIENDS - even if it is just sitting with them and drinking coffee (they'll drink coffee while I drink something else =P)
  
• FIND A JOB - I am already currently working at Wonderland but when the season is over, I still need to find a job that will help sustain me


• WORK OUT - I feel that I am getting a little fatter and heavier and get tired easily so got to get the blood and stamina higher


• PLAY WITH HINHIN AND LIKSI - I haven't been spending time with them at all. They are always in the cage now and I feel really bad so I should at least carry them or let them run around


• GET BACK TO DRAWING - I have all these images and ideas in my head but I haven't been able to draw them out because of the many things I have been doing; got to get too it


• CALM THE FUCK DOWN - I have been stressing so much and making sure that everything is secure that I stress so bad that it takes out all the energy out of me; have to learn how to calm down and just be mellow


• READ BOOKS - I have been reading books but not lately because of my busy activities; have to just sit down and read


• ENJOY MYSELF - I have been working too hard and not spending enough "me" time; I should just mellow out and just be me


• WATCH MOVIES - I have not been watching any movies or any series of shows lately; I really have to catch up on those shows and films


• BE MORE DETERMINED - I have been putting of things, chickening out on a lot of activities and even plainly avoiding things that I am interested in but cannot get the courage to bring myself to do them; I have to learn to try things even if its a variation of something that I have been already doing

I think that should be it for now. I hope this list will remind me of the things I want to do and the things that I hope to accomplish this month. September is the next month after August so when that rolls around, there is not much that I can do. Must constantly remind myself about all this.

I really hope I can get these done! >_<

`~CheckedOut!

P.S - I did not forget! =P I saved the best for last

• SPEND MORE TIME WITH GRAHAM - We haven't been spending any time together lately so it is a MUST that this should be done by this month!